Food for Thought
Goodness. I certainly wasn’t expecting that.
Domingo called the next day and asked me out. He’s a nice guy, but I am not ready to leave the kids with a sitter and go off on dates. Devlin is still out there somewhere doing who-knows-what. I need to be home. I offered to make a home-cooked meal, but Domingo wasn’t interested. Since he spends a lot of time making house calls, he wants to go out and have fun. It appears that we want different things at this time, so I turned him down as gently as I could.
I have to admit that I have been so busy with our daily routine that I haven’t really taken the time to look at the bigger picture. I am now…
I love my family, but am I doing the right thing by being a single mother? Am I doing them a disservice by not modeling a loving relationship and having a good male role model around? Dare I open my heart and trust another to treat my babies & me well? *sigh*
A new day brings a bit of insight. First things first. The situation with Devlin needs to be permanently resolved one way or another. I can’t, I won’t live my life looking over my shoulder wondering if… when that snake will strike. I also need the comfort and relief that having the adoptions go through will provide. Then, perhaps I can consider looking for Mr. Right.